July 24th, 2009
Jet plane
Hi! I'm here at Changi airport in Singapore. I would've love to post this early on but I could not access the free wi-fi around here. John's sing mobile has no load so I can't receive the SMS that says my password, bummer I know.
Well, last night, I fought with him again. I was back to my old, pushy, self. Please. I just need a breather and not do it anymore in the Philippines. Apparently, we're not together, not official or whatever. An idea which I'm not comfortable with. I do hope everything changes soon. I'm just not used to uncertainty. How can I entrust myself to someone who doesn't even recognize me as his girlfriend in the first place. Anyhow, the more I push it, the more he gets disappointed. So I'm choosing amongst these options. Feel free to give light to me on this dilemma. Should I?:
a. relax, give it a shot, trust him
b. give him an ulltimatum, either we get official or Im gone for good
c. relax while entertaining other people, since I can't be stuck with him, we're not official.
My recent post was just shameful. We're not even together and I talked about the ins and outs of a good partner. gah. really. how shameful was that. I was acting like I was his GF. Ewww. Really now? I'm not? Haaay 
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Oh so I met up with him, an got pissed for asking ths friend of his to have coffee. I hated the idea. I got mad.